Glitch

It is not always perfect on the other side. I always observed how happy a couple walking the street and feels like it's a happy ending. But I would never know what is happening behind those smiles, the holding hands and the laughter in between conversations. I have been imagining my life is as perfect as that. What I didn't know is that the future is Allah to hold and nothing in our hands could change that.

Growing up has been a lot of ups and downs. It starts when you are rearranging your life and choosing your career path. The career that would make more money or the one that would make your life contented. Whether you are going to climb the stairs uphill or in a lower gradient. You are still not sure what the future holds, but this decision will determine what lies ahead. It is always convenient to be clear of the decision and the consequences. 

When I was so little, I am thankful enough that my parents always bring me close to Allah. I can always depend on Him on anything. I always go back to Him. Until now when times is hard, I always go back to Him to ask for forgiveness. O Allah the merciful. 

As suppose to finding the perfect guy that was match-made in heaven for me, I sacrificed most of my youth time for it. Just imagine having to go through that again? I can't take back the youth that I had before. The man that had picked me first handed upon our first date, he loves everything about me. I had flaws left right center. I always felt at cloud nine reminiscing it. Forget the past and look at the present. Live in the present. Keep the good memory alive. Everyday is a new day to explore. Trying to improve and makes today better than yesterday.